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Thursday, December 30, 2010

HELLO



I'm Back to Blogging!

I know I know..i've been MIA for SOO LONG.

N MANY THINGS HAPPENED :D


HAPPY THINGS!


Well, it's the last day of 2010..

any last wishes?

I have TONS.

but i cant seem to rmb any one of them right now..oh well!
*and from what u've seen above,
one of the biggest change?
im loving, n im loved.

xuan loves u woohoo!♥
11:45 PM

Thursday, May 13, 2010

GOODBYE




excited excited excited.




what am i excited bout?


i dunno.




all i noe was tt i couldnt slp last night..closed my eyes for 2 hrs only!!


i dunno if it was my heart tt was beating unusually fast(duh. if not i wld have died),


or perhaps sth weird was inside me!!




5d4n!!!


many things to do, so lil time.




wun be back till 17th night.


byes!!










lets have a little experiment, shall we?

xuan loves u woohoo!♥
8:48 AM

Monday, May 10, 2010

i wished




i wished a balloon could just take me away right now.

n dere i am, stuck at this point..where there's so many things that i want to say it out.

but i cant.

bcuz i noe pple r reading.




this is a stupid post.


just feel like writing something..at least blogging helps to keep 10% of my feelings in it.

so i have 10% more space to think bout other stuff!
these few days..

i've received different emotions and feelings from the people around me.


love

despair

guilt

tired

ashamed

happy

relieved


and so much more that i just couldnt find the right words to describe.




but one thing that really touches me was the love i've seen from my dad.


not that im ignorant of his love for me..
but it just didnt came across my mind that it was more than that.



rmb i mentioned that i just got a camera?


initially..all i wanted was my dad to fulfil his promise, by getting me a new camera.


however, i nv once thought that i would hear this from my mum.


" 重小到大,爸爸最疼的就是你了."

i was like.. REALLY REALLY REALLY???

no wonder *********,****** (sth personal, but i might tell u if u asked me :] )

n i realised, since young..no matter wad i do..no matter wad i asked..
he will always be able to keep his promise.
n perhaps subconsciously, i knew tt too.


n den, i asked myself...
wadever dad has asked from me, expects from me.
was i able to do it? did i meet his requirements?

no matter how much guilt builts up on me..put it bluntly. those are merely feelings.
it's just self-reflection without action taken.


n then, overseas trip.
i've never ever asked $$$ from my parents.
friends of mine, would noe how much i hated to spend other pple's money, to be treated.
( n chin pei, hh, i still owe u $$$ )


why shld i spend other pple's money when i have $$ myself?
why shld i be treated?
if i do not have the ability to get the things i want, den so be it.
=/ sorry, im really particular when it comes to this kinda thing.


budden, bcuz of this trip, no way could i depend on myself. esp when sch just ended and i haven got myself a job.
n so, i knew tt i had to depend on my parents..
i can only blame myself for not considering all these factors initially.
too naive.


so b4 i even talked to my parents bout it..
my father just handed me the money without saying much.
although he did nagged bout how naive i was to think tt going overseas wld be an easy thing.
he knew that i couldnt support myself financially.

wad else could i do ?
i just smiled sheepishly, n thanked him.
de same way i did when i got the camera.

going to be 20. n i dun feel tt i've grown up yet.
hate being immature. it's really irritating.
how i wished that i cld faster grad, find a stable job.
n start to fulfil my duties as a daughter.


well, i dunno about u guys.
but have u ever thought bout it?
what did our parents do, that they have to accept our selfish behavoir?
not generalising..but when will we ever grow up?
all we ever thought about was ourselves, how much fun we want.
we think that we r facing the worst problems that no one else could be facing.
when these problems are wad? BGR? friendship? money?


when was the last time u ever really thought bout u n ur family?
when was the last time u really had a heart to heart talk with them?
when was the last time u greeted them early in the morning, n b4 u go to bed?
when was the last time u went out with them?
when was the last time u held their hands?
when was the last time u hugged them?
when was the last time u showed them a smile that's from the bottom of ur heart?
when was the last time when u faced a problem, the first that came to ur mind was ur parents, n not ur friends?
when was the last time, you told them you loved them?

n then again, for some pple. when will it ever going to be ur first?
anw this is just sth i want to share...

aiyee. i dun even noe how to continue..
stupid post indeed. haha.
back to my diary!

xuan loves u woohoo!♥
10:54 PM

Sunday, May 9, 2010

HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY

nolboo for mothers' day celebration! whee! :D
yummy yummy bibimbap!





me first time having authentic korean cuisine..n man...
there's so much veges!!
healthiest meal i've ever had =/
n of course! korean bbq leh..
de bbq pork....NOT TO BE MISSED!!



the kimchi fried rice~~


kimchi pancake (with cheese)

had millions of kimchi! =/
n i love the malt tea that they served us..
next time, i must try the wine that's made of malt!!




love my new camera :D
just got it ytd..dad promised me he will get one for me after my exams..n yes!
i love my camera
i love my camera
i love my camera!!
go bkk can take thousands of pics LOL.
ahhh...i need a job soon!
i needa earn $$$ n pay back my dad for my expenses..sian.
ok. i shall not think so much...
enjoy my trip first ^^
全天下的母亲。。
快乐妈妈天！！！

xuan loves u woohoo!♥
6:39 PM

kite flying

went to fly kite on fri!
b4 tt, went find nic n gary first...
ps is BORING.
everytime go ps find them. SIAN.
AHAH.



nic! i think u look nice here!!

gary n his 梦幻女友

looking forward to the bkk trip! :D
den meet up with uni peeps..n off we go! BARRAGE
hot sunny day..
can dieeee


i like it!!
haha if not becuz of this stupid uncle who purposely walk near the bird, n scare it away..
i could have gotten more better shots!!






haha!
i want a spongebob KITE!!
n patrick.
n mr krab.
i want the whole family!


clean but disfigured soccer ball.

after awhile..


dirty blood stained and disfigured soccer ball!

bloody toe.
yucks.


they look like fishermen!!
fishing...for birds?

haha hy n js so hardworking..
we lazy pple!
entertain ourselves by taking photos!

i like this photo!
cannot see yk.
n half of desmond's face.


=.=





hahaha!






actually can see i very lazy to blog hor.
LOL!! more can be seen frm my facebook :)
ok i really lazy to blog..
cuz so many crazy funny things happened that day!!
BYE BYE
to you:
i really dun wanna talk bout this anymore, especially in my blog.
but i know u will definitely read this..(since u frequent my blog)
honestly, u r still doing IT again. even though u've said umpteen times tt u will not.
n even though i've been talking about this umpteen times.
when will u ever let go?
when will u ever let me go?
when will u ever let the pain go?
it's alrdy almost a yr..
though this sound harsh, but i really wondered if giving u my contact was the right choice.
u asked me to block u from all sorts of ways..but let me ask u.
wad good will it do?
can i block u from msging me
can i block u from emailing me?
can i block u from "thinking"?
my reason for not blocking is that i dun find that there's a need to.
u r just trying to run away, trying to avoid me as much as u can.
trying not to piss me off.
but r u able to do it?
srly, i dunno wad kind of extreme words am i still able to say to make this whole thing end.
it's been almost a yr alrdy..
n u've been told by me so many times, u shld noe tt im not someone tt's nice at all.
n dun come telling me tt im still a nice n cute n wadever girl.
bcuz if i were u, getting hurt over n over again definitely wun make me feel this way.
how much hurtful things do u still want me to say to u?
how much hurtful things do u want me to say that will make u sad, n make u guilty?
im not that right person for u, n i never will be.
this is my final reply to u,even though u din wanted a reply from me.
i really HOPED tt u can think this through..
i dunwan ur life to be screwed up.
and as selfish as it may sound,
i dunwan to be the reason that u r living a life that u r not happy at all.
n yes, i dun need u to reply me at all..
cuz i can roughly predict wad it will be.
im not someone nice, im not someone good.
im not someone tt's even supposed to be in ur life.

xuan loves u woohoo!♥
4:24 PM

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

for my CHINGU


HELLO MY CUTE LOVELY CHINGU.
only u will agree without thinking about doing stupid stuff with me. :)
n for that,
im thankful to have u as a friend.
i probably said this few times..
but im really glad to know u!! u noe anot?!?!
even though we always same schl, bt different class, different course..
we always share sth in common!!
TIO BO ?
:)


n ty for influencing me to LOVE KOREAN.
bcuz of tt, i found my prince charming....!!!


this photo is for u!! no matter how much u hate ur side view,
i still think tt it's very very very very very PREEEETY!





haha i really dun feel like posting this pic, but this photo was taken by u.
must give u credit yea!!



u like me wearing this right!!?!?! so earn $$.
n buy for me OK! HAHAHA.




spastic poses nv fail to make me( n my friends and ur friends ) laugh.






No.1 funniest cutest chio-est girl in the world!!
wife of lee min ho n kim bum.
LOL



No.1 hungriest girl in the world.
WIFE OF LEE SEUNG GI...
"will u marry me~~~~~" -lee seung gi
YES I WILL.
tt song is for me right? I KNOW. :)





"OH~~~~~~~. caught in a bad romance~~"
RAH RAH RAH.





"YO YO CHECK UR YOYO OUT! "

xuan loves u woohoo!♥
11:15 PM